It had only been 2.5 months in my new job and I have learnt to see things in a different perspective. Friends that appears to be genuine does not necessary means that they are being true to you. One moment they can be fucking close to you and the next moment your being isolated. Reason is because you have your own judgement making decisions and they didn't like it.

Is this what true friends are for?

Well, if this is the kind of friends that I'm gonna get in this new industry then I rather I not have any.

In this service line, there is a few things that I SERIOUSLY need to change about my character.

Lesson 1: Being naive and believe that by treating others with sincerity, you will get the same treatment back.

Lesson 2: In this line, you can't be too close and reveal all your dark secrets to others because you don't know when you get backstabbed. Once day, you will just die on the streets without knowing how you die.

Lesson 3: Hypocrisy is what I call it. You got to have this VERY important element in you. Everywhere you can see people putting on fake front so this is something I really got to learn. I can't be a siao char boh to every single one to them because you dunno what shit they will say behind your back and being in a service line especially in my company, I think this is a skill that I must definitely master in time to come.

Lesson 4: Take things with a pinch of salt. Be it zapping, backstabbing, bitchings.. all take it lightly and NEVER let it affects your emotions and thoughts. ( I'm still learning it..)

Lesson 5: I cannot continue being a straightforward and direct person. Not everyone can take my comments and if I got to be neutral and fake, I will have to do it.

More lessons to be learnt in time to come. I know everything is not going to be easy for me. Especially for a HAPPY-GO-LUCKY person like me, all these lessons will be a painful one for me. However, if I could survive in this industry with all the painful lessons that I've get, I will fucking suck my thumb and get it over and done with.

Got to sleep now. Tata.